Crucify me

my_crucifixion @ 2005-10-21T04:00:00

2005-10-21T09:00:35Z

I ain't no God damned son of a bitch. You better think about it baby.

my_crucifixion @ 2005-10-13T15:05:00

2005-10-13T20:05:41Z

I really do mean to update more often, but I'm forgetful. Whatever.

Here's an overview of the last week:

I went to the bar last Friday, and it was dumb. Amanda wouldn't dance because she didn't want people to be looking at us. What's the point of getting all ready and going out if nobody's going to see me? So I downed a few, and created my own fun. ;] Tomorrow I'm going again, and I'm bringing someone else to drive home.

As far as not procrastinating, HA. I'm an idiot, and waited until Tuesday yet again. But it's alright. We have but two more classes before our clinicals, during which I will be working with actual patients, and wearing my spiffy scrubs. Nicole and I purchased some from her mother's work. The pants are flared. Yeah, that's right. All the others will have standard, Wal-mart style scrubs. We'll be rockin' the good stuff. However, the uniform code dictates that we must wear white. I have to purchase some granny-syle white undies, as I do not own any. Bummer.

I'm sick, and that sucks.

Good news: Joe and I have been engaging in phone conversations every night for the past week. He's a spectacular person. Ab-fab.

my_crucifixion @ 2005-10-07T14:07:00

2005-10-07T19:07:59Z

Last night, Heather, Amanda, and I went to Kevin's house and jammed for a bit. It was fun. Watching him play the guitar makes me want to crack down and get serious about playing. He has so much talent, and he taught himself. I am amazed, because I can't teach myself shit. Lol

I'm going to a bar/club tonight with Amanda. She said that there are bunches of sexy men there, so we'll see. Sometimes her judgement is questionable. But everyone looks alright when I'm half in the bag. lol

It'll be cool, I'm sure. I could use a night of fun, and I fully intend to tear up the dance floor. I want everyone to be looking at me. ;] Haha

"Dibs on Roger!"

2005-10-06T03:37:24Z

I had class today. We learned about Perineal care. Exciting, eh? It was certainly someting. The syllabus indicated that we'd be giving eachother bed baths today, but we didn't. I was a little bummed about that...i shaved my legs this morning, and for what? haha. Instead, we demonstrated on some anatomically corect dummies. Not exactly CORRECT...they wee transexual dummies, sort of. The penis was dettachable, but both had breasts. The one that i demonstrated on had a bracelt that read, "Roger." That was funny to me. Anyway, I'm tired because I stayed up until nearly 6 AM doing homework that I should have been doing all week in preparation for today. I think I'll be turning in early tonight. But all is well, this week is a new week, and I don't intend to procrastinate. We'll see. Lol.

If only I had an emotional switch.

2005-10-04T08:10:02Z

I had a dream about Mike the other night. I really wish I could stop thinking about him, but it seems to be inevitible. In the dream, he was in a bed of roses, but the roses were artificial, like those purchased at a craft store. I perceived this to be artificial beauty. Perhaps it meant that what we had was not real, but in fact artificial. Maybe this is the closure I need to move on. I think my subconscience is trying to tell me that it's over, and i need to move forward with my life. My heart needs to accept what my mind already knows. It has been months, and I'm tired of thinking about him.

On a lighter note, I met someone who seems wonderful. His name is Joe, and he'd super sweet, intelligent, he has aantastic sense of humor. I've been alone since the split, and it's so refreshing to have a conversation with a man who isn't interested in bringing me down, or fighting. I could see myself getting to know him and forming a friendship that could have the potential to evolve into more. Whatever happens, I want to take things very slowly and see what, if anything, comes of it.

In any event, I'm focusing mainly on me for now. That may seem selfish, but it's what I need to do. I'm feeling very ambitious as of late. I've undertaken the project of redecorating my room, and last night, I painted my dresser. It was a long process that included sanding, sealing, painting, and sponging, but I am so glad I did it. It looks amazing! It's hard to believe that something this cool was the fruits of my labor. I've never one anything handy like this before, but having done it, i feel like I can do anything (Within reason of course. Lol). We'll see what task I'll tackle next. ;D

my_crucifixion @ 2005-09-01T04:21:00

2005-09-01T09:21:37Z

Long time, eh? It seems as though I start all of my entries that way. I suppose I could update more frequently, but I don't really see a point. Nobody reads this thing anyway. It is but an outlet for me, a proverbial wasteland for my expired thoughts and what not. Kinda bleak.

Whatever.

Good news:
I bought a red 95 Grand Am SE. The windows are tinted, and I like it a lot.
Nicole and I are taking a CNA course beginning in September (This Month!), which will hopefully provide an escape from my dead end lifestyle. I'll be making at least double what I am now. News just doesn't get much better than that. I'm looking forward to the change.

Bad news:
Mike and I broke up. I guess, being as I haven't made mention of him much in this thing, that wouldn't seem like a big deal, but it was. I spent eight months devoting myself to him, and then nothing. Men are ridiculous. I've spent time with a few men since the split, but sadly, those encounters too would fall under the 'bad news' category.

You win some, you lose some I guess. Damnit, I'm waiting on my lucky streak.

my_crucifixion @ 2005-01-20T09:36:00

2005-01-20T15:54:38Z

I haven't posted in awhile, but I have some free time, so what the hell. :]

I came to Nicole and Carly's house almost a week ago, and we've been having a blast. I'm surprised that I've stayed this long. We always plan on me staying for a night, MAYBE two or three, but this time I stayed like six or something. Going home will feel strange. This was like a mini vacation kinda. Lol. It's really cool here though. They used to live across the street from me when I was young as hell, so I've known them for a long time. They always make me feel like a part of the family, but I like to think that I kind of am. :)

Nicole's baby is getting so big! She's soooo pretty. And she's smart! It's so strange to think that she's a tiny little person and will be molded by whatever those around her say and do. Ok, so it's not that hard to imagine, because that's obviously what a baby is... but it's cool because in a little way, me being around while she's developing and learning all these new things is cool. It's like.. because I'm in her life, even if only a little bit, I get to help mold her. :) I can't wait to have a baby. 2007 sounds like a good year. Lol. I just hope he or she is as cute as Maddie! She's s'damn cute. Haha. God knows she must have gotten it from Nicole! Haha

Anyway, I'm getting a new cell within the next week, so that rocks. Mike is getting it for me. He's great. I really like him a lot. :] I'll post about him some other time if I feel like it. Right now, I'm gonna go cuz Nicole and I have things to do. We're gonna go to the tech and get information about classes so we won't be bums. Lol. Then we're gonna go pick up carly and go have lunch. It's always fun when we all get together. It'll be an eventful day, I'm sure. And today I'm going home, no matter how much fun we have! I miss my mom. Isn't that gay? haha. Whatever though, I do. ;x

Yeah, and my background is effed. That blows. I gotta fix that...someday when i'm not a lazy ass. Haha.

Peace, kids. ;]

my_crucifixion @ 2004-10-11T03:56:00

2004-10-11T09:56:17Z

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After I stopped in at Maddie's party, I called Chad and we chilled for awhile.Then Melissa called me so I met her at her house. We just chilled all night and shit. OMG I wanted an empanada SO bad, but by the time I thought about it, Taco Bell was closed. So we went to Walmart and tried to find some, cuz yanno, what the fuck doesn't Walmart have?

Empanadas!

The dumbass workers didn't even know what an empanada was. I was like wtf retards... I understand that you work the freaks/geeks shift, but come on, have you never been to Taco Bell? Dumb-da-dumb-dumb. I hate people sometimes. But I love Melissa. We had a shitload of fun.

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Ok, these quizzes keep getting gayer and gayer [PRIDE! what what!]so I'm done clogging your journals now. I woulda added the little link thinger in there to hide the shit, but it's like 5 AM and i'm tired. So fuck it, i'm going to bed.

OH yeah, I bought new jeans. They make my ass look hella good. I rock.

my_crucifixion @ 2004-10-06T00:28:00

2004-10-06T07:31:57Z

Minutes are hours, hours are days.
Trapped in the nothingness of my very being.
Watch me fall apart.
If you can't duck it, fuck it.
fuck me.

;]

my_crucifixion @ 2004-10-04T00:40:00

2004-10-04T05:47:00Z

Yep, so life is cool. I got my license reinstated the other day, and that rocks.

Joe asked me to go to Seattle with him at the end of the month. I really might go... all inclusive trip, there isn't really any down side. ;D

I just smacked Brittany... what what! Now she's my prison bitch. lololol <3

Shit, I thought I had more to say. Lol. Whatever.

Call me if you're cool. What what. ;]

lololol

2004-10-04T05:39:26Z

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my_crucifixion @ 2004-10-04T00:27:00

2004-10-04T05:28:16Z

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my_crucifixion @ 2004-09-22T10:00:00

2004-09-22T15:01:32Z

my_crucifixion @ 2004-09-22T09:40:00

2004-09-22T14:41:22Z

It's been awhile, but I'm at school and I'm bored so I thought I'd post. We're doing projects on "self-esteem." Haha. Exciting, huh? What what! Earlier, I had to do an essay on a pamphlet entitled, "I am important!" I tell ya, they make us do some weird shit here. Whatever though, I'm done on Friday. Thank God for that. I can sleep again! Haha. Yep, and I got a job finally. That won't interfere with my sleeping though. The hours rock. Score. I work 4-9 on week days, and 9-3 on Saturdays. The Saturday shift kinda blows, but I'll cope. My place of employment is Fox Valley Distributing. I'm a telemarketer! Haha! It's not that bad. I kinda like it. And the people with whom I work are really cool. I think things will work out. :] Time will tell, eh?

ok, so, it's weird.. Brittany got a job too. Neither of us had a job for the longest time, and then suddenly, in the same week, we both got one. Kinda strange, eh? Cool though. Go us, what what!

On a less positive note, men suck. Wtf, man, I rock. Don't pull this bastard ass man routine with me! It will -so- not fly. ;x !

Don't diss me, I'll cry! lololol

Brittany Galore!

2004-09-17T02:47:20Z

And you know why? Because that's me! LOL I'm updating for my lovely sex partner Mandy ^.^
"Cuz I'm too fuckin' lazy to do it myself."
We've decided to diet... not going to great for either of us at the moment... but shit happens and we'll get into the routine hopefully.
Blah blah blah Call Mandy, Cuz she's hot!

So... Brian. She talked to him on the phone for like... 8 or 9 hours a few nights ago and I guess they got to know each other severely well. ^.^ "I miss him so much!" She's totally diggin' on him. (Woa... never used those words before >.<) "At least you didn't say I'm crunchin on him." LMAO He's tall, skinny, curly kinda long dark brown hair. "I like him a bunch and I don't know why. He has a great laugh." We met up with him at the mall for a brief moment while we were chillin' outside because punks wouldn't let us in to see Ryan Cabrera.

"I wanted to know, I love the way you laugh..."

my_crucifixion @ 2004-09-09T16:58:00

2004-09-09T22:04:18Z

I had a dumbass appointment thing today with a career counselor. That was a real shit-fest. After that, I got some new bras and underpants. What what! Hell yeah, i'm sexy like whoa. Haha. Nothing else is really new.. i'unno. Chilled with Bubs and Brittany the past few days. Had fun. Whatever, same ol'. Oh, and Brittany's friend Brian seems cool. We're gonna hang out sometime in the near future. Chinese food and Pretty Woman... it's a date! ;D

S'all for now. P'z, muthaz. lolol

my_crucifixion @ 2004-08-27T17:39:00

2004-08-27T22:41:58Z

(Some weird old guy is sitting next to me, reading whatever dumbass shit is on his screen out loud.. under his breath sort of, but it's weirding me out. Stupid freaks that come here, I tell ya! Oh, and some other old guy stared at my boobs earlier. Rofl. I can't wait to get the fuck out of here.)

BRITTANY AND I ARE GOING SWIMMING TONIGHT! WHAT WHAT! We've been wanting to go for like weeks, so i'm psyched. Lol.

K, now I'm going f'real. haha. Peace out. And madd love to all my Life-D homies! I miss you tons! Hit me up on the aim sometime... submodaiitiez. Or yahoo... s4pph0. Contact me or die! ;D

my_crucifixion @ 2004-08-27T17:22:00

2004-08-27T22:38:43Z

My mom wanted to come check out a book at the library, so I siezed the opportunity to come update. Here's my life in a nutshell as of late:

I am Cherry Pie!!!
Hot and sexy! I like to be in style and love to
look my best. I love attention and try too hard
to get it! I'm pretty flirtatious, i'm a really
fun person to hang around even though i get
muself into trouble sometimes!

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Rainbow

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I haven't posted at all lately because the internet at my house is down. Luke and my mom are breaking up and the phone was in his name, so of course the fucker disconnected it. I'd rather go without a phone/internet connection than continue living with that monster of a man. I loathe him. He'll be out by October 1st. Thank God. It's about mother fucking time my mom came to her senses and kicked that raunchy asshole to the curb. I know that with him gone, things will start to look up for us. I'm going to get a job and so is she, after her surgery. We'll make it, and we'll be doing better than we were with him around. What really rocks is that my mom will feel better about herself. There won't be anyone around to bring her down anymore. She deerves to be happy, and I know she will be once everything pans out. Obviously I can't move out yet, though. That kinda foils my plans for the immediate future. I'll hafta be helping her with Emily, and bills and what not. I'm not complaining though. Once we're back on our feet I'll be able to move. This will give me a chance to save up some money anyway which is always a good idea.

Though I haven't posted in awhile, I am still online sometimes at Brittany's house. She just moved like a block away from me and we've been hanging out a lot lately. I'm really happy that she moved so close, cuz we've been having a blast together. Plus it's like doubling our wardrobe! hahahaha, jk. Our styles are waaaay different. ;D

Speaking of styles, I went thrifting yesterday and got the coolest shit ever. I'm wearing some of my cool new vintage shit today, actually. I kinda look like a skank cuz I have massive cleavage exposed, but yanno what? I could care less. I look hot as hell and i know it. lol. WHAT WHAT! HOLLA!

And Rob, you rat tail, I've been trying to get ahold of you! You suck and blow simultaneously! Skank pot! <333

Aight, with that said, I'm out. ;]

my_crucifixion @ 2004-08-04T19:05:00

2004-08-05T00:10:19Z

Sean, a friend from high school, and I went out for lunch today and caught up. It was a lot of fun. I adore him<33 We go way back. Then we watched a movie and had a grand ol' time. Hopefully tonight I'll chill with Jordan [And hot Tom and hot Amber]. hehe. I'unno. Whatever y0. My nose rocks.

my_crucifixion @ 2004-08-04T04:42:00

2004-08-04T09:42:59Z

We got trashed and pierced my nose and my lip tonight. Rock out. It hurts, but it'll be worth it. I can't wait till it heals. I love Jordan and Tom<33

my_crucifixion @ 2004-08-02T23:34:00

2004-08-03T07:00:59Z

I'm at Jordan's and we're having a blast. I love Jordan ;D Yep, and Brittany and I have been hanging out a lot lately. That's cool. We always have a lot of fun together. K, i'm going home now. Bye!

- <33333

btw, you can't get ahold of me. I'm untouchable. what what. ;]

Travis, I miss you.

Moldy-arrow, eat me. I <3 you! ;D

my_crucifixion @ 2004-07-22T21:55:00

2004-07-23T02:55:44Z

Have you ever really listened to the silence?
Have you ever seen the wind blow?
Have you ever mentioned my name in the shadows of time,
Only to meet the silence of a beautiful wave of love?
Of pain;
Of Lonliness?
How many times have you noticed
The power of the darkness;
Of the silence?

<3 Trav <3

my_crucifixion @ 2004-07-22T21:47:00

2004-07-23T02:48:01Z

My mom went for resentencing and got thirty days with childcare release from 8 AM to 8 PM. I'm relieved. They went easy on her. Thank God. I don't even want to think about what would or could have happened throughout the duration of the 3-6 months they had estimated. So now I only see her during the day, but I'm okay with that. Luke and Emily usually go to bed around 9 or 10, and after that, I'm alone. Sounds more sad than it is. Lol. In a situation as such, I'd rather be alone. Besides, two days are down, and I only have 28 more to go.

Travis leaves for NY tomorrow. That sucks. He just got back, and he'll be gone again. But, 'whatev' [Lol Jordan.. i totally stole that. haha]. Shit happens, homie.

On a lighter note...
I dyed my hair red/brown/auburn. Everyone around me digs it, but I don't. I'm gonna change it soon.

Inez's graduation party is on Saturday. I'm excited. All of my friends from high school will be there. I haven't seen most of them since I got expelled, so that'll kick ass. We're all gonna go swimming and get wasted. Lol, I can't wait.

I got bored last night/this morning, and painted my lighters with nail polish. Haha. I'm a 'tard. But they look cool as hell.. all brightly colored and glittery. WHAT WHAT! lol

Jordan, if you're reading this, I still wanna borrow Sex and the City, so hook it up. Haha. <3 you!

an addition....

2004-07-22T10:24:20Z

Roll a joint...

< ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ >

...and smoke up!

<ZZZZZZZZZ#### ~~~~~~~~ [Cheesy, huh? Lol. That's my attempt at e-art. C'mon, it made you laugh, dork. Give it up. ;x!]

my_crucifixion @ 2004-07-22T05:10:00

2004-07-22T10:10:52Z

Staples are dumb. Don't buy them. Paper clips are the way to go! See Rob's entry regarding the matter for further details. sxeboi2k3

[Screw the retraction letter, Rob. There's nothing saying 'delay in effectiveness of stapling' on the label. Or maybe it's in the fine print... I'd hafta get out my bifocals (lol).. but if you ask me, I say stand tall and proud, and let those dirty stapling bastards know what we think of them! And if they don't fulfill our forementioned requests, we'll prank their asses 'till they go nuts! And watch out, guys. I can do a mean Avon lady impression! Hahaha

I really, really, really like Travis. I can't remember if I've written about him before or not, but I'm way too lazy to go through past entries and check. Haha. I'm so unmotivated. Who is Travis, you're wondering? This is where it may seem silly. Travis is a guy I met online through another online friend, awhile back. He's great. F'real, Completey and absolutely perfect for me in every conceivable way...except for the fact that he's in the army and can't be with me. It seems as though fate is playing a cruel joke. Maybe I'm naive, or maybe just retarded. Lol, I dunno, but I know how I feel, and I know it doesn't feel silly. I guess weirder things have happened, yanno? I think the feeling is mutual, but it's hard to decipher one's level of emotion over the internet. Maybe it could happen. I could wait the two years and however many days until he gets out of the army, and we could be together. One of us would have to relocate though. There isn't much really keeping me here, though. I have great friends and I adore them, but sacrifices have to be made in exchange for happiness sometimes. I'm not really sure exactly how much I am willing to sacrifice, though. I know I'm kind of a hardass, and I say I don't need love, but when push comes to shove, I really do want it. Who doesn't want someone special in their life, yanno? It's just so different with him. It's like he feels the same way about stuff as I do. No drama, no games, just being real and having fun with everything that cha do. I can't imagine myself with many people, but I can imagine myself with him. Maybe he'd live here. Or maybe we could move somewhere completely different and start completely over. I'unno. Maybe it isn't anything big at all. Maybe it's wishful thinking. All I know is that I want to be happy, and he makes me happy. Besides, Jordan the_smoker and Rob sxeboi2k3 (As previously mentioned) are 56943576209760936 miles away from eachother, and they seem to be hitting it off great. In any event, i'm not gonna let my pessimism get in the way. What will be, will eventually be. Fate is a fickle thing.

It's getting light out, and I'm going to bed.

Oh, and For the record, Moldy-arrow, disregard any previous retraction suggestions. I got booted whilst typing this entry. Hahaha! Blow me, Mr. Staple guy. ;x !